just got to chat with Dearest.
haiish... finally i can tell some1 how i feel.
aft him i'm fear whenever i go.
i cant stop imagine him infront of me and it make me feel so scared.
i'm afraid of seeing him etc...
the joke he played really make me feel so fed up!!
feel so stupid.
i find myself like a fool.
my life turn up side down after knowing you!!
haiish...
who can i turn to lei??
GOD??!!
hmm impossible!!
the feeling that i had i guess no one can easily understand about it.
i'm scared and i'm afraid he will suddenly appear in front of me.
OR
behind me.
hmm so scary!!
HORRIBLE!!!
i don wan to live with this kind of feeling.
it really make me feel so uncomfortable.
KONG JU GAN

i'm sorry SON!! i know u treat me well and i can see it with my eyes.
pls do give me some time to stable and cool myself dwn.
if not i don know wad i will do to u and hurt u.
so sorry boy...
forgive me.