What had i done today.

1. woke up and first thing msg Mr.Lok
2. bath etc and than on lappy.
3.all the way gaming and watching show.
4.msging Mr. Lok and tell him IMISSHIM!
5.Chatting with Kiok Ann and plan for tmr catch up.
6.Editing blog.
-deleted alot of stuff
( I just wan a simple blog )
-change new tagboard
7.Chatting with Mr Lok
8. Posting this post.
9.Fbing soon with Mr.Lok
10. Goodbye!

24-25 Dec, promised with the family. Sorry guys !!

I need to say it to you you you

Firstly, Ah siao seem to have some problem nowsaday. which idk what is going on at all. cos im not with them. srsly disappointed in some of the things and i really hope everything will be fine. arent it suppose to be "Ah Siao Stay Strong!" ?? guys... i hope u all learn to loves and treasure each other. i wouldn't want to see what happened last time to repeat. JK and JW u know wad i say uh. NO ONE IS PERFECT!! be it u chg or whoever chg, i believe there's a reason in it. if u chose he/she to be ur TRUE fren, than accept it. if u still not happy about it, talk about it. don ever bad mouth or do stunts behind he/she. cos true frens don backstabbed. Esp Ah Siao. okayy... i know we can stay strong de. i know we can. so guys pls, don ruin it with ur own hands. our name list will alwys be there ok. don't ever get tired about it ok.
1. Jolin
2.Aaron
3.Joon Keat
4.Marion
5.Jialing
6.Jun Wei
7.John
8.Wei Lun
9.Ting
10.Sheng

Secondly, i will like to let this lady know that im nolonger that naive gal u knew last time. i'd grown up. and u know that we know each other very well. so wad for acting over there and pretend that everything is nicely done? oh pls... u forgotten that we were ONCE very close. i don understand why u have to hide all these. u know it very well that wad u are doing now is totally a big mistake! it brings unhappiness to u and ur family. arent u suppose to be there to protect ur family members? i don wanna ask u bcos i know u will definately tear infront of me. well, i shall keep quiet. but pls, others have eyes. they do suspect. esp, they're adults!! and YULING hate LIARS!! i know u don mean it, but u still choose to hurt me. hais... u knew i trust u alot. and is it bcos of these, u chose to lie to me? comeon.. u cant lie forever. cos u're not good at it. u don even dare to speak too much to me aft toking to the phone to him!! cos u found out im just right behind u. yes i pretend to know nth, but actually i knew all of it. hais... wake up pls and be a nice women. FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR LOVE ONES...

Thirtly,Mr lok, i really hate u alot... i super hate u... u know the reason. u make me so busy every milli sec... i wonder y are u so so so so so power?!!
u make me busy and yet not tired. idk shld thanks or blame u. hahas...cos im not tired, i cant stop myself from busying...(is out of my control) i've been like this in this 5 months !! no no no, i have been like these ever since i fall for u.... i swear, i will do wad u did to me. and i swear, u will complain to me one day.. hiak hiak hiak!!!! :) don u ever say no when is ur turn to be busy!!

alright im done... im done with my say...

PAIN

yes, is a pain. esp for big daughter. (mostly)

alot of kids who are being the first will always complain that their parents sides their siblings more than siding them. am i right?

srsly, i do agree to that. my parents is one of the example. -im the Big Daughter.

here are a few points that i heard from frens who are in the role of first kid :

*sis and bro or either one will have more attention than me.

*sis and bro or either one will have their regular pocket money.

*sis and bro or either one will have their say.

*sis and bro or either one will be able to get what they want once their mouth open.

*sis and bro or either one will not be in fault first.

*sis and bro or either one being bad, is of their big sis/bro example.

*sis and bro or either one was being protected more.

*sis and bro or either one can yell and create nonsense.

*sis and bro or either one !@#$%^&*()

hais... see how bad the first kid feel?

in those point, i have almost all of them in my life after my siblings are brought into my life.

im not here to blame that they are here to ruin my life. and neither am i here to say that they are bad or what so ever. my key point is "The Parents, The Pains"

*sis and bro or either one will have more attention than me.

for me, my siblings will always get the attention first when my parents are home from outside.

sometime im not home or im home, they didnt even notice my present. well fine.

when my sibling is sick, they will keep on asking and care about them, and will want to bring them to the doctor. for me, hais. im alone in the room, trying to cure myself with meds that was given to my siblings the time they went to see a doctor few days/weeks/months back ago. no one notice im sick even though i alr mention it to my Mother. is always frens come and concern about me first. and of cos my BF. my parents?! ok la, when im srsly ill and i cant bring myself to school, then they will notice and all they ask is, "got see doc anot? go see la." than, walk off. see, how sad it is right? one word NEGLECTED.

*sis and bro or either one will have their regular pocket money.

hummph!! this, i know i'd grow up. but im not like 21 years old. and of cos i dont have stable job that allow me to pay everything by myself. yes, im a part time tutor, i work. but do u know how much i earn only? less than $300/mnth. there's 30 days in a month. i cant even spent more than $10 in a day. whereby frens out there can have nice clothes, food and even things easily by paying money. be it cash or cards. all i do was to stand aside and ENVY! i know my dad do give me pocket money. but, maybe $10 for this week and 2 weeks later i then get another $10. how am i going to survive? i cant always lock myself at home right? i need to go out. yes, window shopping. but can transport fees to be like window shopping? dont have to pay? and FIY, im paying my own bills, transport, meals outside etc. i really fking miss the days when im in sec school. at least my Dad got to drive me to school daily and give me pocket money. $5/day. money is not the matters. all i want is yours attention!! again NEGLECTED

*sis and bro or either one will have their say.

when parents ask to do things for example, housework.

big daughter help me sweep the floor, than mop than wash the clothes and dry it after wash. arrange my rooms for me and "soon bian" the rest of the room.

if i said " huh, so many or i say wait." than,

" why are u so lazy? cant u just help us? you are old enough liao ok. next time married liao how? asking u do little things u complain here and there. 你要气死我是吗？"

hais... the radio(nags) starts.

but if...

small daughter or son can u PLEASE help me sweep the floor, than mop than wash the clothes and dry it after wash. arrange my rooms for me and "soon bian" the rest of the room？

they replied " huh, very tired leh me." or " so many! i do alone uh?" or "orh" (then nv do)

parents, " guai la, help mummy do ok. i come back buy nice food or wadsoever for u. u guai hohx." or just "kept quiet" or　＂ask jiejie(大姐) help u la. like that u wont need to do so much liao lo. " -.-"

UNFAIR

*sis and bro or either one will not be in fault first.

*sis and bro or either one being bad, is mine or the parents' faults.

alot of the adults will say this to the first kid, " you have to show good examples for your siblings!, they will follow you if you are doing things that are bad!"

i believe everyone are responsible for their own characteristic. if other is being bad, you dont have to follow. is all up to u on which way u are heading to. there's nothing to do with ur BIG SIS OR BRO OKAY!! no one is to be blame other than yourself. you bring the troubles to yourself or sometime to your love ones. who to blame? think about it.

well adults, " have you guys showing good examples too? pushing responsibility is a kind acts uh? i wonder? -.-""""

NONSENSE

in the 9 points, im in 5 of it. sad case...

i know my parent do loves me. but y are they treating me this way?

is a pain to me actually. or perhaps im immature like one of my cousin mention, who are the first kid in her family too. she encounter what i had and well both of us were sad about it. maybe we're still IMMATURE uh! telling ourselves that we're immature maybe could helps us to feel a lil much more better ba.安慰自己！

i know some 2nd kids or even the youngest encounter wad i had too. i know how u guys feel.. but well, mostly it happen to the first kid. the big bro or daughter. why do i say mostly to BIG Daughter? cos some adults will be so byers that they 重男轻女... some Big Son were actually a king to them. wow!! Envy leh... Big Daughter seldom can be thier queen or princess. but some other else which i dont wish to elaborate. cos is HURT!

......IS A PAIN TO BE THE FIRST KID.......

.......IS A PAIN TO BE A KID WHO GOT LIL ATTENTIONS FROM THEIR PARENTS.....

.......IS A PAIN TO BE TREATED UNFAIRLY AT HOME......

......IS ALL ABOUT PAIN.......

Dinner on 311009

had Sakae with my.bF at Parkmall. well nice dinner i can say... and really had great time with him in Sakae.

BUT

after that a tiff with him outside Tangs...
don wish to elaborate about it. but we were ok after a big cried!! LOL

my.bF, u know i know uh!!

overall it was still a nice day except for the Tangs part.
my.bF home with me and we really really really had a great time watching movie from Funshion. we watched till 5am ^.* right bF?

woke up arn 12 noon and i prepared for my tuition.. ARGGGGHHHHH!!!! im so tired...
and bF sleep till very song... i got pic to prove that.. hahas...

of cos i cant tahan to see him sleep till so song so i woke him up...
and he sat beside me watching show again while im having tuition. (i pei him watched a lil too. my std too.. LOL)
he went off after my tuition... and me, like a siao zhabor, missing him badly and yet lazy to go off with him. in the end i regretted for not following him after my lesson. well nvm, will get to see him tmr after lesson. allllrrrriiiiggghhttt, i shall stop here...


*i miss Mr.Lok

hmm am here to share what i heard from a fren recently.

1stly, have you all ever had a fren who are so evil that he/she did something that definately will hurt another good fren of yours? and the victim is actually a very kind person that he/she treats both u and that evil fren quite good. nth bad at all. have u?

well there's this case that i heard which really boiled me up. and i said this to myself, if im the one who have this evil fren, i will nv ever trust he/she anm or even not to be his/her fren.

here i go :

A: evil fren
B: my fren (female)
C: victim

recently, B had a outdoor event with her schoolmates. due to some xchange programme etc. than they were in a game whereby C was in the different grp from A&B.
while A&B was waiting for C's game to end at the shelter, A suddenly took out C half drank mineral water(bottle) and squeeze sweat into it. (sweat that A had after first game.) squueze from different part. Hair, pants, clothes. *disgusted*
A even swept those that was on the face into the bottle. and put it back nicely. asking B not to tell C. well B was in difficult spot. she didnt want to make A&C to quarrel so she choose to keep quiet. and while C came back, C quickly took out the bottle and drank it. well it was too late. B did not have the chance to stop C. but well C tasted smth weird liao but C still wanna finish it. B and some other frens tried to stop by hinting that the water must be turning bad under the hot sun ( well lame i know) but C wouldnt want to listen. and C finished it in a few sec. B and some of her frens was really feeling so bad that they dont know wan tell C wad A did to him/her. in the end, they decided to keep it as a secret for A and well they did warned A not to repeat any kind of acts like this anm. and they somehow ignore A for awhile. YES JUST AWHILE.

my view : im so so so pissed off after haring this shit. i cant believe there's actually fren doing this to another fren of his/hers. is so suck and not cool at all. A might think that is rather funny. but well, i find it so cruel and childish. and if i were B, i will not hesitate to throw e bottle and get another bottle for C. i know B was in difficult spot. but well, B somehow is a complice to me. B was said by me and she really feel very sad. hais... wad a fren she had. i pity C for not knowing till now. and i really hope that A will get punish soon. He/She must be punish. this time used sweat, who know what A will use next time round. *shakehead
and C is so so so so innocent.

hmm, just changed a new template.

i know is simple.

but i like it. hahas...

hmm now waiting for aunt to come fetch me to meet up with tofu&co.

Mahjong session.

hmm like so long nv play liao eh.

Baby went training.

hmm this man really mad.

hmm don feel like elaborate it any further.

as long as nth happen i will shut my mouth.

hmm hopefully nice game with them later on.

alright shall stop here.

update later on if i can ^^